Missing Omi & missing pets

[arwen_lune]

There's a song on my playlist that can occasionally just punch me in the gut. It's an old children's song that Flexor recorded for my grandmother. It was her favourite song.. we played this recording at her cremation ceremony in January.
Is it weird to not miss a person as they were last, but as they were years ago? Nana was very ill, I feel it was her time to go.. the person I really miss hadn't existed for a couple of years. I am still so sorry that I never got the chance to show her around on one of the ships I sail on. I still run into things that make me thing "she would have loved this". I still miss hanging out with her.

Not having internet at home is pretty confronting. I feel more alone and removed from my social network. It also hurts even more not to have pets. I still think it's weird that I can crave having a dog, really feel at as a gap in my life, when I've never had one. I better not look if that old Border Collie is still in the shelter, because he probably is, and it's gonna make me cry.

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[aligoestonz.livejournal.com]

Is it weird to not miss a person as they were last, but as they were years ago?

Not at all. My Nan died last year having suffered from dementia for the last few years, and both my sister and I got a bit choked up when we saw the picture on the order of service as THAT was our Nan.

[flexor.livejournal.com]

I remember that. Talking to you on IRC, then rushing home, chucking my equipment together, singing the song three or for times before I got it right, having Sess txt you to wait for it, and uploading it.

I remember my grandfather, with the wonderful name IJsbrand, "Kang" to his friends. We'd plan to steal ships together. A few months before he passed away, we went on a boat trip, had capucijners met spek on board. I was too young to notice, but my dad said he'd never seen him happier.

Here's to old memories.